still here

not that anyone cares, but i havnt gone anywhere.. i'm still here.. now, i know that sounds quite harsh, but i've just been really disconnected lately and so many thoughts have been roaming around in my head.. now that school is over and a new part of our lives is about to begin, you start to understand and things become clearer.. you realize that this isnt just like every summer.. you're not just on vacation and you're gonna see your friends again, so it doesnt matter if you dont call them for a little while in the vacation.. No. it's different this time.. you dont get another chance now. if you forget to call back or pay attention, you begin to lose things.. i'm not basing this on anyone is spcific.. i'm just, like i mentioned before, a little confused.. everything seemed so far away, just a few months ago.. but now, everything seems to be closing in on me.. i dont know how to explain it.. in a way, i'm regretting, that i didnt realize all this before.. i mean, i did.. i just didnt care to pay as much attention, if you understand what i mean!? i also noticed that i havent been updating my blog and that since Facebook started, i totally forgot about my littl Bloggy2.. so now i saught the opportunity and decided to post yet another useless post.. but i hope now, i will be able to pay a little more attention and keep whoever still checks, up to date.. :)
well, see you next time.. i hope.. if i dont forget again this time.. sorry about that, in advance :(
bye for now

ABI-fahrt! ABI-fahrt! ABI-fahrt!!

if i hear that word one more time or any related questions, i'm goin to shoot myself!! i know i've said that many times before, but i just cant take it!!!!! why wont everyone just lay off!!!! GOD!!! i get so frustrated!! i mean we're tryin our best to get suitable offers for everyone, but whenever we finally have something, something else goes wrong! then when we finally solve the problem, the teachers find something to nagg about in the solution!!! iffffffff!!!!!!!! what else can i do! i cant go hukus-pokus everything's great! nope! sadly i cant! so everyone just has to be a little patient! i mean we're in egypt, you have to expect not to get things done from one day to the next! we're not in europe! and if you have something to complain about and think you can do it better; go ahead! noone's stopping you! on the contrary you'd be doin me a huge favor! but noooooooooo all you can do is nagg, nagg, nagg!! and order around that you want this and that done and by this and that time!!! WTF????
ok.. *deep breath* 1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5.. 6.. 7.. 8.. 9.. 10..
alright! we started off on the wrong foot here.. i'm clam, now lets talk slowly so everyone can understand! hmm.. where should i begin? well there isnt really a beginning and therefore there doesnt seem to be an end to this whole, i'm gonna go ahead and call it, "crisis"!! the flight! the hotel! the rooms! the tours!! it's all just a little too much for my teeny-tiny brain to handle!
and just to get one thing clear; this post isnt dedicated to anyone in specific.. ok, maybe it is! but i mean.. not exactly anyone who would actually read this post.. unless of course some slimy little caniving dweeb decides to show it to anyone this might be posted to..
as you might've noticed i'm not posting any names, since as i said this isnt speaking to anyone in specific! on the contrary.. i bet the people who read this, are the people i should be thanking, for doing anything but annoy me about the -word that shouldnt be said-.. you've been very helpful in understanding and not stressing about the whole things and just for that i'll try my best to make everything work out (and of course for the fact that i'll have about 60ppl ready to kill me if it doesnt!).. so thank you.. and with these words i will leave you now, before i burst into another letting-out-my-anger-phase..
bubye!!

PS: i posted this in such a non-matching colour to the background, because i know it looks yucky and sucky, which kind of reflects the point of this post!!!! just so no one decides to critisize my taste in colour!

to my girls at the top of the tree

(also called: to the members of the "loser"-club)

I was sorting through my mail when i found an email from my cousin (I think) she had sent me a while back, whilst i was still a member of the club this is dedicated to.. -hehe- anyways.. it said to send it to all the girls i know who are at the top of the tree and i thought i'd just post it for them.. you know who you are! (and to those who dont: it's the members that havnt been able to make it out of the club yet! but dont be upset, at least you all got v-day cards from Neemo!).. anyhow, enough blabber.. here you go;

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they're afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground, that aren't as good, but easy.
So the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. That is why we just have to be a little patient and the right boy, the one who takes a chance to find the good, right apple, will come someday...

Love you guys!! (k)

"don't be afraid to make mistakes"

I heard this in one of the OneTreeHill episodes that I'm watching, and this might sound a little silly, but it sorta "inspired" me.. ok, maybe inspired is the wrong word, but I just really liked it and it sorta gave me an insight about how we lead our lives.. anyways.. just felt like posting it.. here you go:

"Looking back on what I said, all the hopes and dreams I had, I’ve come to the conclusion, that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to, as a measure of a successful life, then some would say I’m a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life’s disappointments, learn to let go of the past and recognize, that every day won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember, that it’s only in the black of night, that you can see the stars and those stars will lead you back home. So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most, maybe you’ll get everything you wish for... Maybe you’ll get more then you ever imagined. Who knows where life will take you, the road is long and in the end the journey is the destination."
-Whitey Durham (the Ravens coach in OneTreeHill)

The Purple Hat

Age 3: She looks at herself and sees a Queen.
Age 8: She looks at herself and sees Cinderella.
Age 15: She looks at herself and sees an Ugly Sister (Mum I can't go toschool looking like this!)
Age 20: She looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall,too straight/too curly"- but decides she's going out anyway.
Age 30: She looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly" - but decides she doesn't have time to fix it, soshe's going out anyway.
Age 40: She looks at herself and sees "clean" and goes out anyway.Age 50: She looks at herself and sees "I am" and goes wherever she wants to go.
Age 60: She looks at herself and reminds herself of all the people who can'teven see themselves in the mirror anymore. Goes out and conquers the world.
Age 70: She looks at herself & sees wisdom, laughter and ability, goes out and enjoys life.
Age 80: Doesn't bother to look Just puts on a purple hat and goes out tohave fun with the world.

IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck

(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).

I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earthwould go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.

I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted instorage.I would have talked less and listened more.

I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.

I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried muchless about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace

I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.

I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.

I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer daybecause my hair had just been teased and sprayed.

I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.

I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more whilewatching life.

I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.

Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished everymoment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the onlychance in life to assist God in a miracle.

When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, "Later. Now go
get washed up for dinner." There would have been more "I love you's." More"I'm sorry's."

But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute...look at it and really see it, live it and never give it back. Stop sweating thesmall stuff.

Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what.

Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.

Let's think about what God HAS blessed us with. And what we are doing eachday to promote ourselves mentally, physically, emotionally. I hope you all have a blessed day.

It's good to be a woman, because:

1. We got off the Titanic first.
2. We can scare male bosses with the mysterious gynecological disorder excuses.
3 Taxis stop for us.
4. We don't look like a frog in a blender when dancing.
5. No fashion faux pas we make, could ever rival the Speedo.
6. We don't have to pass gas to amuse ourselves.
7. If we forget to shave, no one has to know.
8. We can congratulate our teammate without ever touching her rear end.
9. We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there.
10. We have the ability to dress ourselves.
11. We can talk to the opposite sex without having to picture them naked.
12. If we marry someone 20 years younger, we are aware that we will look like an idiot.
13. We will never regret piercing our ears
14. There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.
15. We can make comments about how silly men are in their presence because they aren't listening anyway.

song of the week

you know how every once in a while you get songs stuck in your head, like an Ohrwurm, or songs that you just cant resist singing to when you hear them somewhere, or just simply songs you listen to over and over again without getting sick of them because they put you in a good mood.. as shown in one of my previous posts "since you've been gone" from Kelly Clarksom was one of those songs for me.. but this week there's a new one, that from lyrics and beat really makes me go so hyper.. i think it kinda fits to our "situation" now, after ABI and i think some of the girls will be able to relate to it.. hehe :D.. well i just felt like posting it, so.. here's something for the girls:

"Man! I Feel Like A Woman!"

I'm going out tonight-I'm feelin' alright
Gonna let it all hang out
Wanna make some noise-really raise my voice
Yeah, I wanna scream and shout
No inhibitions-make no conditions
Get a little outta line
I ain't gonna act politically correct
I only wanna have a good time

The best thing about being a woman
Is the prerogative to have a little fun (fun, fun)

Oh, oh, oh, go totally crazy-forget I'm a lady
Men's shirts-short skirts
Oh, oh, oh, really go wild-yeah, doin' it in style
Oh, oh, oh, get in the action-feel the attraction
Color my hair-do what I dare
Oh, oh, oh, I wanna be free-yeah, to feel the way I feel
Man! I feel like a woman!

The girls need a break-tonight we're gonna take
The chance to get out on the town
We don't need romance-we only wanna dance
We're gonna let our hair hang down

The best thing about being a woman
Is the prerogative to have a little fun (fun, fun)

Oh, oh, oh, go totally crazy-forget I'm a lady
Men's shirts-short skirts
Oh, oh, oh, really go wild-yeah, doin' it in style
Oh, oh, oh, get in the action-feel the attraction
Color my hair-do what I dare
Oh, oh, oh, I wanna be free-yeah, to feel the way I feel
Man! I feel like a woman!

The best thing about being a woman
Is the prerogative to have a little fun (fun, fun)

Oh, oh, oh, go totally crazy-forget I'm a lady
Men's shirts-short skirts
Oh, oh, oh, really go wild-yeah, doin' it in style
Oh, oh, oh, get in the action-feel the attraction
Color my hair-do what I dare
Oh, oh, oh, I wanna be free-yeah, to feel the way I feel
Man! I feel like a woman!

I get totally crazy
Can you feel it
Come, come, come on baby
I feel like a woman

"wir sind jetzt (offiziell) 3/4 reif"...

... or at least that's what Gassia would say! hehe.. we've finally finished our first three schriftliche ABI-pruefungen and we're freeeeeeeee (at least for the moment.. i dont even want to think about what's next for a little while).. this is a reason the updates on this blog havn't been proceeding.. we've all been busy studying for out exams.. not that i did much, but.. you know.. well.. i dont care.. it's over.. we're finished.. we're done with what we've been working for for the past three years and we've been in school for 14 years now! wow!! it's kinda wierd to think about it and that it'll soon be over.. but i dont want to think of it as an "end".. more like just a "next step".. i dont know.. i had to think of all this for my english exam, where one of the questions was whether finishing school was concidered "the end of our old lives" or not.. and well, yeah.. i'm not gonna sit and tell you about the 300words i wrote, but i just dont think so.. that's all you need to know for now.. whatever.. i'm blabbering yet again.. but it's 2:00am now, so i have every right to do so.. hehe :D well.. just felt like an update (satisfied, RB??).. so.. gd night for now and look out for some more updates soon (if my internet doesnt collapse like it did yesterday :(

byebyez for now

!BORED AND CONFUSED!

(don't ask!!)